How fast everything happens!
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Nothing...the roommate is catchin a nap!
Okay, well let's see...Okay first things first (I know you wanna know about this, Cris), I am dating this guy named Matt. He's sooooooooo sweet and I really really really like him =D (totally unlike the assholes I've been dealing with recently!) ANYWAY! We started dating Saturday, and this weekend coming up is Family weekend, so he'll get to meet my dad, mom, and Mary all in one weekend...poor thing! His family can't make it, so I think he might spend time with me and my family and then I'm gonna let him have some time to recuperate from all the craziness.

I love how I've already told both my dad and my mom that they have to take me 1) out to dinner, and 2) to Wally World! I have so many things I need to buy, but I don't feel comfortable riding in Evan's car (Evan is Matt's roommate...and one of the few people on the floor who has a car, b/c freshman are only allowed cars under certain circumstances).

But I digress...so anyway since Saturday night, I haven't slept without Matt with me. I stayed in his bed Saturday night, and every other night following he's stayed in my room. And my roommate, Joy, has had a guy in her bed named Alex (nickname: Jersey). I've gotten so used to that need for another person there when I'm sleeping...I don't know how it hit me so fast this time, but it did.

My friends Mary Ellen, Jessica, and Devynn all came to Longwood to visit this weekend. Mae (that's mary ellen) came on Thursday night and stayed through Sunday until 7 PM...Jessica and Devynn came down Saturday afternoon and visited until Sunday morning. Friday night, Mae, Ryan, and I went to a party at Sigma Nu, which is one of the frats on campus, and Ryan's sister is dating one of the brothers (Ryan's sister, Kim, is also a sister in the sorority, Alpha Delta Pi, that goes with Sigma Nu). It was a great party and I had downed one drink and was on my second one within the first five minutes. And that trend kept going(You know how I do...) ;) So needless to say, I had to be babysat that night, but I wasn't horrible, and I wasn't sick, so that's a good thing. It ended up, though, that Matt babysat me =D (Mind you, this is the night before we started dating) He was such a sweetheart and took care of me, and made sure I was okay.

Anyway, Saturday rolls around, and Devynn and Jessica get here and they say "So I guess we ought to talk in quiet voices, huh?" Because Mae gave them this whole story about how I was drunk, neglecting to mention the fact that she was only there for a maximum of 5 minutes during which you could actually tell that I was drunk, the rest of the time she was around me, I was acting sober and she couldn't tell. NOR did she mention how her b/f, RYAN was drunk as a skunk! But I'm not one to obsess over trivial stuff...oh no, not me =D So we all went to the student union b/c there's a cafe underneath it, and we got some food, then went to the Rec room and played pool and pingpong (while I layed on the gigantic bean bag chairs, except they don't have beans in them, or w/e those things are, its just that they have tons of cushy fabric or something...whatever). When we were done there, we went to the dorm and watched a couple of movies in Matt's room - Chocolat and Zoolander (personal favorite) - I however was asleep, with matt, on his bed! :D Then everyone left the two of us alone and we started making out and then he asked me to be his girlfriend and now we're dating...Okay, there's the long damn story with none of the juicy details! hehehehehe!

Oh and Saturday night we went to a Sigma Nu party again, and Matt and I danced for 2 and a half hours straight...OMG it was wonderful! I haven't danced so much, or had that much fun dancing in a LONG time! Ryan kept telling me, "Abby! How many times do I have to say it?! QUIT HOLDING BACK!!!! Dance like you mean it, like we KNOW you can!" I was so embarrassed, I told him I didn't want to scare Matt our first night out, but finally I gave in and started doin my ghetto-fab stuff and yeah :) Ryan shut up after that. Then we came back and crashed, it was great fun! Still, theres tons of details I left out that make this story a comedy, but I have TONS of statistics work to do, so I need to hurry up and end this gushfest that is all for you, Cris! =D Hope you enjoy it, I'll call you and fill you in on the rest! :-* LOVES!

Go Away
Topic: SOME guys, not all
Let's try fucking pissed off as my mood! Goddamn! if they're gonna have moods, they have to include the bad ones with the good, because sometimes you are just PISSED!

I had forgotten about it, I had let it go. I let it go when I wrote it down here, so that I didn't need to think about it anymore, but then you have to come back and say more shit about it, and make it out to be my fault and my problem. I know I'll do well in college, you wanna know why? People already tease me about how many guys I have who like me, AND MORE IMPORTANTLY -- GUYS DON'T MATTER! If I have a guy, great that's fine, but if I don't, that's perfectly fine too, I'm havin fun just hangin out and being myself.

Do me one last favor, and leave me alone. Just don't talk to me (because I for sure haven't been talking to you, b/c you aren't a big part of my life anymore, not that you had been for a while, which we both know is true, and I know that I haven't been a big part of your life...well, ever really) don't bother to comment on what I've said here, don't bother to remind me that you think I'm an idiot, or that I'm a bitch or that somehow, someway, its always been my fault whenever there's been an issue. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT ANYMORE! I'm sick of always being the one at fault. I'm sick of you telling me that I don't call enough, or you don't see me enough, or that I'm not good enough for whatever reason, because EVERY TIME I TRIED TO DO WHATEVER IT WAS YOU WANTED, you'd get farther away from me, and say the same thing more and more.

So I'm through. I'm sick of expending all my energy on something that isn't gonna work, that you don't want to work, that isn't worth it anymore. I never expected this to last through my going to college. I mean, you couldn't even bother to come visit me or pick me up, I always had to come to you. And when I did come over and visit, you'd whine about how i didn't visit often enough, or about how I wouldn't drive to get you food after I'd already been at your place, and then bring it back to you and then go home. You never wanted to pay attention to me, you just wanted me there when it was convenient for you. I drove you home all the time when you totalled your fucking truck, and I dealt with it when you talked to other girls online about how you wanted to fuck them and finger them and all that bullshit when i was sitting right there on your bed. Yeah...I saw that after you made such a big deal of trying to hide the conversation...b/c otherwise I never bothered to look over there.
I just cared too damn much...over something that didn't give me a damn thing in return.

Please, just leave me alone. I just don't want to deal with it anymore, I just CAN'T deal with it anymore...I had forgotten about you, and I had moved on...so just let me do that again...as a goodbye present.

Why isn't TIRED a mood choice?
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: The Definition (LL's newest CD!!!)
"push it out girl, arch your back" ~LL

DAMN HE'S FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH BABY!

Okay, he's mad hott and I want him sooooooooooooo badly! LoL but then again, I want all hot guys...well not ALL of them! ;)

FUCK FUCK FUCK
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Summer 04 mix
Topic: SOME guys, not all
Okay, I DID ask...that was the whole part where I said, "I don't know whats goin on in your life" and then YOU said, "beer, sex and I need some basketball"

THAT MEANS THAT BEER AND SEX ARE GOIN ON BUT YOU NEED BASKETBALL! I ASKED! I ASKED WHAT WAS GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE! and you responded...

Brian - answer your damn phone, I said I was sorry, I didn't mean to hang up on you...gddamn!

Evan - we really gotta chill Saturday! MOST IMPORTANT! I hope you're feelin better! Just remember, I'm always here for you and I love you TONS! (hehehe you know what, he may have been sizing up the competition, but there is none! he isn't nearly as important to me as you are, but then again he's a typical male...you...aren't) =)

I love you all, hope this weekend rocks for everyone! Happy early bday MAE!!!! LOVE YOU TONS AND MISS YOU TONS!

Nichole, of course I won't forget you!!! NEVER WILL!!


LOVE ALL! **I'm off to watch Love Don't Cost a Thing to put me in a better mood...12 is the first class...woohoo the Wynne building sucks!**

The College Life
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Summer 04 (aka Abbykins's Dance-O-Rama!)
Topic: SOME guys, not all
Okay, well I accidentally hung up on him last night...that really sucked, and then my phone was dying (that's why it hung up in the first place)but it was at the weirdest time...like I didn't realize my phone was gonna die just then...I thought I had another couple min at least! anyway...he called me back a couple of times, but I was across the hall and my phone was charging in my room...I'M SORRY!!!!

So there's this guy, Mike, and he's in my friend Ryan's room (it's ryan, ryan, mike, and jimmy...but jimmy's pissy and antisocial...w/e!) So anyway, Ryan (my ryan not cr) thinks that Mike likes me, and so does Kristen...she's convinced he does...w/e...maybe maybe not, the important part is what I told Ryan tonight...I don't know that I'm ready for anything beyond flirting right now. So just like I told Kristen the other night, and what she reminded me of tonight...just see where it goes, and just chill about it...if its gonna happen, then it'll happen...if not well there ya go.

I dunno how I'm feelin right now...I miss EVAN!!! Evan sweetie, I'm so sorry you're not feelin your best right now! I PROMISE to do my best about Saturday! I think the college life is good for me, but I'm way tired right now.

I miss him sooooooo much! its soooooo far away though! like what...10-12 hrs... :'(

Oh yeah...this was a GREAT *sarcasm* fuckin conversation...

"i just don't know what's goin on in your life" ~ me
"beer, sex, and i need some basketball" ~ bitch boy

GEE! THANKS! i REALLY wanted to fucking know that I'm so replaceable...so quickly too! FUCK YOU BITCH! I was so much better to you than i should have been for you to treat me like this now!

Anyway...seeing as Cris is the only one who reads this anymore, i doubt it'll matter but w/e

love you all...sweet dreams I think I'm headin to bed...yes this early...I've still got a couple chapters to read.

NIGHT! LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!!! :-*

blah
Mood:  down
I still don't understand why they have all these great moods that tease you into thinking up other wonderful moods, and then don't leave space for you to write your own! I mean honestly, I feel so limited when before I couldn't even choose a mood period!

ANYWAY! that wasn't the original point of this entry. Mae left Saturday, Brian left Monday, Evan leaves Friday, Cris left today, I leave a week from Thursday...and now I'm just asking "why couldn't I leave first?"

Got new clothes last night...great fun shopping with my mom, actually. Very happy with the stuff, and we didn't spend all the money we decided we'd limit ourselves to (b/c we really do spend like maniacs!)...or maybe we did...I don't really know, but regardless, more shopping next month apparently, and hopefully my daddy will give his "petite ange" a lil shopping spree before I leave...then again, maybe not...*sigh* o well w/e.

Got a great email today, nicely spontaneous and whatnot...unfortunately, got it too late...o well on that one too--maybe later?

I'm cold and I'm tired and I just had the realization that I don't have anyone to sleep next to me tonight...that really sucks...it doesnt have to be sexual, just someone to cuddle with or what have you...Evan knows what i'm talkin bout! (no i did not cuddle with evan!...in the past couple of years anyway! hehe j/k)

I wonder if I'm getting what my mom had, really hope not b/c that'd mean that I would be sick right before moving...funnnnnnnnn...oh yeah! Did i mention that now i'm freaked about the ecps? kinda worried bout that a bit...just kinda like...at what point should i freak? although, i'll know for sure monday =D Sorry for people who don't know what I'm talkin bout...you'd prolly think its boring and i'm an idiot...or at least one.

Hey alex! remember how we talked about me visiting you in ATL? Still up for it? ;)

Aight I'm out like...well I'm out anyway! Sweet dreams...***Miss you***

Drama drama drama drama drama drama drama drama!
Mood:  irritated
i've realized its pointless in some cases. point in case:



rebound master51 [10:41 PM]: k
VampAngel88 [10:41 PM]: :-P
VampAngel88 [11:07 PM]: *poke*
VampAngel88 [11:07 PM]: hey
VampAngel88 [11:07 PM]: i want a kiss
rebound master51 [11:24 PM]: and?
VampAngel88 [11:25 PM]: and i want you to give me one
VampAngel88 [11:25 PM]: obviously not right now
rebound master51 [11:25 PM]: well see
VampAngel88 [11:25 PM]: or you could jsut never see me again if thats the plan
VampAngel88 [11:40 PM]: i'll take that as a definite yes
Auto response from rebound master51 [11:40 PM]: house sitting for my parents gimmie a call....*** 7734


Oh yeah, that's a yes...

and then the commentary from a friend who knows the guy (albeit not very well, but then again neither do i and i've been "dating" him off and on for almost a year and a half)

Shimmers30 [11:31 PM]: what a bitch...he's definitely the bitch in the relationship...always moody...pouts...cant make up his damn mind...
Shimmers30 [11:31 PM]: he gets mad and puts up an away msg
VampAngel88 [11:31 PM]: i know and he accuses me of creating drama all the fuckin time
Shimmers30 [11:32 PM]: lol oh yeah it's all you...especially bc you're the one trying to END the drama by putting things into the open
VampAngel88 [11:32 PM]: ugh he's the only one i have drama with!
VampAngel88 [11:32 PM]: i know!
VampAngel88 [11:32 PM]: EXACTLY!
VampAngel88 [11:32 PM]: OMFG!
Shimmers30 [11:32 PM]: he just ignores them, puts up an away msg and pouts
VampAngel88 [11:33 PM]: but if i EVER pout about ANYTHING he has to point out how i'm being childish or some shit
VampAngel88 [11:33 PM]: its like "FUCK YOU, YOU DON'T PAY ENOUGH ATTENTION TO ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND ME, OR MY LIFE, OR WHY I DO ANYTHING I DO!"
VampAngel88 [11:33 PM]: wow i'm sorry i needed to say that
VampAngel88 [11:33 PM]: thanks for listening
VampAngel88 [11:33 PM]: and supporting me
Shimmers30 [11:33 PM]: I dont think he'll ever get a clue
VampAngel88 [11:34 PM]: no one else has said that...it means a lot that you see it my way that he's being a lil bitch
VampAngel88 [11:34 PM]: i don't either
Shimmers30 [11:34 PM]: he's going to make some woman very unhappy some day
VampAngel88 [11:34 PM]: too late

Cellular Devices...MY WAY!
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: My Way - Usher (and the rest of the Folly Mix...AGAIN!)
Topic: The GOOD days!
So I finally got the new cellular device...and I got it ALMOST brand new! See, this elderly guy had it before me, it was brandnew, nothing wrong with it, but he returned it b/c he couldn't see the numbers on the keypad (eyesight going apparently...very sad - But GREAT for me!). SO! I got it for $100 cheaper, and perfectly brandnew...he hadn't even used the mail-in rebate! So I've got that too! =D YAY!

only problem...it hasn't been ringing enough...well it's been ringing...just not ENOUGH! SO! =) everyone hit it up and be prepared for me to ask for a new name for it! Because Ned is out of commission, but I'm keepin him as standby...just in case...plus I can't bring myself to part with him yet *sigh* 434.906.4224 he's an Alltel Kyocera...any ideas? Nothing is definite until I talk to my Dearest, or Kerbear about the name, so even if it seems perfect, realize that I can't completely confirm...only give a good suggestion thank you! =)

"My juice is sweet like Georgia peaches / Y'all wanna suck it up like leeches" - Freak Nasty "The Dip"

Devynn on Breathlessness...so true
"its like, you always dream about a breathtaking romance, but you never thought the reason it was breathtaking was because you were too confused and intense to breathe"


~7-21-04~

Makes me want you so bad sexually
Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: Folly mix...Cris knows whats up
Topic: The GOOD days!
She thinks my tractor's sexy! Okay, so I don't have a tractor, and I hope "she" doesn't find it sexy...BUT! =) It's from the Folly Mix...Wow some damn good times...and they're not just songs from Folly, but its kinda too long to type "the folly, the ville, and lake reynovia hits mix" every time I wanna refer to the cd I made...FULL of memories! Although, I remembered some other good songs, Cris, so I'll have to make a revised or!!! better idea! REVISITED version before we head off to mwc and lwood!

"BUT IF IT RUNS LIKE A DEERE THEN HER EYES LIGHT UP!!!"

"Show me love, baby, show me everything you've got and show me life/ Show me life, baby, show me everything and what it's all about / You're the one / The only one I ever needed / Show me love and what it's all about, alright!"

WOW the memories! Remember when we made music videos back in the day? LOL omg...Kat was there too, and we had crazy times...back in the old house in the LR.

I'm in such a happy mood for some reason, I have some closure on some things that I haven't been sure about for a long time, and I let too much get me down. I finally realized that I was letting some people effect me more than they should, and therefore giving them more importance than they are worth.
I talked to both of them last night, one was sure that I was still pissed and that I was bitching at him even though he brought it up, and I was trying to explain why I had misunderstood (trust him...he's such an idiot, watch him shoot himself in the foot this fall!) The other acted as if nothing had happened, and we were still back where we had been way back when...he asked me if I missed him...???? UMMMMMM how bout I get back to you on that one?...in a few years maybe?

But things are going better, and I'm totally fine...life moves on, and I do, too. I'm still surprised at how much I let them effect me...I mean, I really got down for a lil while, but I couldn't stop it, and it made too many people too worried...I knew I'd get over it, I just couldn't convince people that they weren't contriubting to it!

"You come from Georgia where the peaches grow / They drink lemonade and speak real slow / You love hip hop and rock n roll / Dad took off when you were four years old / There was a good man named Paul Revere / I feel much better, baby, when you're near / You love Fun Dip and Cherry Coke / I like the way you laugh when I tell a joke / when I met you I said my name is Rich / You looked like a girl from Abercrombie and Fitch / New Kids On The Block had a bunch of hits / Chinese food makes me sick / And I think it's fly when girls stop by for the summer / For the summer / I like girls that wear Abercrombie and Fitch / I'd take her if I had one wish / But she's been gone since that summer / Since that summer / In the summer time girls got it goin on / Shake and wiggle to a hip hop song / Summer time girls are the kind I like / I'll steal your honey like I stole your bike..."

WOW that reminds me of Corey and Chase even though it wasn't a hit from that summer...just applies if you changed girls to boys and yeah...okay it works in my mind! =D

Okay, only Cris knows what all these songs mean and all my inside comments (cuz they aren't jokes...but...okay nvm). Well I'm off b/c I'll just start quoting all the other good songs I'm listening to and I've gotta get up early to beautify myself for hangin out with friends...wow thats sad...lol, even though I know THEY won't care...anyway! =) LOVES everyone! And remember kids: "Don't buy drugs...Become a popstar and they'll give you drugs for free!" lol, if you all haven't seen Love Actually you absolutely must! its great! (even guys think so...well some of them) OHHH! Cris, that reminds me of our movie watching times...*sigh* its such a nostalgic day..and wow i can't spell!

Speaking of remembering things from back in the day...I finally got to talk to my Rozzypoo! and we're gonna hang out next week! yay!

LOVES!!! :-*:-*:-*